I wrote over a thousand words on who I am. My history, the mental state I was in when I started this journey, the things that had happened in my life that might have affected me. Then I thought, why does that matter to you?
Do you need to find someone in a similar situation in order to believe that only they can help or inspire you?
Do my successes and failures in life make me more or less qualified for what I write here and were those successes really successes and those failures really failures? By whose yardstick?
I’ve already caught myself doing this. In, for example, looking up Dr Wayne Dyer I found he had been married three times. How could someone who teaches ‘success’ be right if they themselves had so many ‘failures’.
But then I asked – Is the end of a marriage a ‘failure’ or the successful realisation of two people that they no longer belong together and that they should set each other free?
Who says a long marriage is a successful marriage. Western society does but not all societies do.
So who I am is not important.
Perhaps the more important question is why am I publishing this on the web? I’ve just suggested it might help or inspire you. Yes I’d like to put the usual line “I’m putting this here in the hope it will inspire others” or something equally altruistic but honesty tells me that this is a half truth.
It would be great if it does improve your life but I’ll have to admit to other motives. The first is a hope that others might comment and critique. Discussions open the mind further and I need my mind opened if this journey is to benefit me.
Of course I have an ego, it would be pointless to deny it. I’d like people to say, “Hey, look at what this wise and clever person has written”! But that ego needs to know its place so the comments sections are open for those who want to bruise it by saying “You are wrong because … “.
However comments are to grow the articles into something more. Any that don’t do this – be it “Great article, thanks for sharing” or “If you pray to God/Allah/Buddha he will provide you with all the answers” will be deleted before they are ever published.
A journey is made to be travelled and although religion can be a useful mental crutch to help make sense of the world around us it can also be a distraction and an excuse maker that blocks genuine self discovery.
There may be an afterlife, there may be a beforelife. I don’t discount them but I’m not ready to accept made up ones because we haven’t figured them out.
There is a good chance I’m not writing anything new, I’m just discovering it for myself.
Each article I write is not a definitive answer. It is my thinking at that point in time on a journey that I assume will change that mentality along the way. That I hope will dismiss nothing and question everything as I travel to the Center of Me.